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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
11:43 PM

gonna get my hair done on friday i think, i want mon and auds to come with me! and take a befoore and after shot, if not i'll take it with me phone. tiger tiger tiger, now it's like all about tiger. man..i'm so sighed about the party this week. it's hannahs sweet sixteen. crap i betta hurry up i need to get my stupid non-sound phone to repair. dropped it to many times, ok i'll skip this and go onto "my life" 7. >>>>>>>>> here it goes

I've had so much problems in relationships. 1st I said no to the person that I love for so long, I made my self love another guy (Sebastian) i fell in love with prawn, how stupid of me, I'm in another situation where I just loose my mind. Why me, seriously why me. I'm really getting attracted to cat now. I wish I didn't know about love or relationships I wouldn't of hurt my self so much if I didn't know about it. But I guess it's a thing that every one has to go through some time in there life. Once you get there, try to get out of it no matter what. How can this hurt some one so much? We should stay independent and not let them take over or else when they do. It will be hard to get out of that situation. I knew that Jordan was the one, like the one, I still do but now I think it's to late you know. But Jordan's gone now, and I can't do anything about it. It was the biggest mistake I made in my life but I guess every one makes mistakes in their lives. He had all the things I wanted in a guy though. He was the only one on my list. But I let him go and when I had the chance I let go too. It was so hard, was like the biggest decision I had to make but I failed. Hope my next relationship won't be ask bad as my previous ones. If I have one person from my list I would be so happy. Just any one of them. Not all guys are bad, you just have to look closer.

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